You look around and see so many different people and you ask… why?

You see the poor people out on the streets and the rich walk by and not even notice…why?

Kids go to school each and everyday, some popular and some not and they sit in their classes and do their work, but most of them feel left out because they are different…why?

They try so hard to fit in but really what they should do is try hard being themselves for a change. People are so worried about what they look like then who they really are inside…why?

So many get made fun of and they go and cry and cry….why?

If people weren’t so mean maybe we would have less crying and more smiles! Your sitting in a crowded room yet you feel all alone…why?

Friends come and go, but the best ones stay around when you need them the most. Why can’t all people you meet be nice, instead they get pleasure out of hurting others….why?

Why when you plan a picnic it rains, why when you have to stay inside all day, the sun comes out?

Why do people go to church and think they will automatically go to heaven, or why did eve eat the fruit from that tree?

Well all of these events you ask why about all happen because of God. He put us here for a reason and that is…why!

We really don’t know why anything happens, it just does, so why ask why?

wow. when was the last time i blogged?? *checks*
last aug 2.. hahaha. wow. i've been busy.. busy.. busy..
anyway.. i broke up with joel.. we figured we were better off friends. ^_^

luke and i are really getting close. he's... sweet.ü
will and i are friends now.

a guy and his girl were speeding over 100 mph down the road on a
motorcycle...

girl: slow down. i'm scared.
guy: no, this is fun.
girl: no, its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: then tell me you love me.
girl: fine, I love you. slow down!
guy: now give me a BIG hug.
girl: *hugs him*
guy: can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? Its bugging me. . .

in the paper the next day..
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

awwww!! but then.. why didnt they just wait till the gas runs out?
o..k.. maybe not.. or they could've just jumped outta the motorcycle.

since im leavin for cali tomorrow.. i live there.
this is just my house-like dorm.

let me explain.. i live in orange, and i study here.. since its too far from home.. my friends & i bought a house here. most of the people i know has the same case.

so im gonna visit my fam tomorrow.. and my other friends
like nick and andy and jake and riley and ashley and alex and katie.. and sorry to the ones i missed, i cant write you all!

anyway.. before i leave, joel & i went out. im gonna miss everyone here.
we crashed blakey's place... and the rest was history.

i love that movie.. it's so cute.
hahaha. the snow angels..

joel & i are a couple!
what about sean? oh yeah, he's ok with it.
he's kinda disappointed
but hell.. he's still my best boy bud..
next no Nick..

and dont forget Luke.
okay, they're all even.
i cant stop thinking about will.

why did will even fucking kiss the slut?
i think i forgive him. since, i cheated on him too.
now i know how it feels.
so... we're all good now.

but when he finds out that joel & i are together..
i dunno whats gonna happen. he wont get to eat for like days.
like what happened before.. ahh.. long story.

plain old boring saturday. very uneventful.

guess what i saw..
the Guess model with a hott guy.
i could've been that girl.
if i went to that ONE shoot.

Luke's so sweet.
He was there when i needed a friend.
He's always the one who comforts me im down.
When life is tough he's by my side..
dedicated to luke.ü
If...

If you are a flower
I am your smell.

If you are the sky
I am your moon.

If you are a bee
I am your wing.

If you are a tree
I am your fruit.

If you are the rain
I am your drop.

If you are the grass
I am your freshness.

If you are a mountain
I am your river.

If you are the rainbow
I am your colour.

If you are the fire
I am your wood.

If you are the sea
I am your water.

If you are the sun
I am your light.

If you are my dream
I am your imagination.

If you are a dove
I am your messenger.

If you are a cake
I am your chocolate.

If you are the seashore
I am your sand and shells.

If you are the clock
I am your time.

And all because I love you.

- Mariana Antoanella Valcu -

i love him.. as a friend.ü

i like sean's ass... hahahaha.
i think i love sean..
love is such a strong word.. but i THINK i do.
im still sad with the whole will thing though.

Sean & I went up the hill..
We were gonna have a picnic with Sarah.
So.. she wasnt there yet we.. umm..
made-out. erm.. yeah.
sean and i might actually work out.

after like 30 mins.
we saw sarah running up to us..
with her nanny. she tackled me.
ouch. she's a heavy li'l girl.

afterwards, we played.. tag.
whoooohoooo!!ü

we brought sarah to their home
and.. i stayed with sean.
okay.. so we did make out.. again.
we were almost to the point
where we do it all the way.

but ionno, i cant. i just cant.
and yeah, he understands.
awwww... it's just so wrong.

when i woke up..
i had 3 miss call.. will, will, will. fuck off!
i was gonna call him, when...
Scott asked me if i wanted to go with them to the beach.
ok, sure..

scott: what's with your eyes?
adrian: she's been crying, scott!
scott: i know that! but.. why?
adrian: it's that will guy..
scott: how did YOU know?
adrian: she told me...
scott: oh..

At the beach..
we were walking, talking.. stuff.
when Dri & I were sunbathing, the devil twins splashed water on us!
then Dri & Scott 'went to get something'

adrian & i decided to go to the cave..
we talked & talked.. and for a moment there
i didnt care in what he was saying..
i was lost in his alex band-ish voice.

i forgot all about will. i dont care anymore.
go fuck the whore, for all i care.

scott:
-dark blonde
-deep voice

adrian:
-blonde with natural light brown highlights
-deeper voice

that's it?! lemme look at their eyes..
hell, i dunno.

i was in the living room.. crying.
when.. adrian suddenly popped out.
he left his hoodie. he saw me and asked me what's wrong.
i told him everything. i feel like i can trust him.

he hugged me tight.
i never want to let go.
he told me it will be alright. [sounds like a poem.]

[he's staying at scott's]

me: *runs up to them & hugs them both*
jamie: hey skye!!
will: hey..
me: so what did ya get me?
jamie: more sex bands to snap.
me: *shakes head* so.. what about girls, met any?
jamie: will did, he even..-- uh-oh.
me: he?!
will: nothing.
me: what?!
jamie: he made-out with her!
will: JAMIE!!
me: you did?! fuck you.

i ran to my car and drove really fast.
when i turned on the radio.. it was 'the best deceptions'
coincidence. my eyes are red & puffy. *sniff*